Is It 1999?

I loved GAP all my childhood and early teenage years because that's where my parents dress me in, and it was almost like cool to wear it. Once I hit 15, I couldn't despise GAP more. Not just because I could no longer wear GAP KIDS and neither could fit in the oversized clothes for men, but I somehow developed taste and concluded that clothes at GAP are just uglyand unjustly overpriced.

Until recently, I started going back because they kept on having ridiculous sales even a GAP-hater like me couldn't resist. I told myself: "well, why not? I need more basic t-shirts and casual button downs", and little did I know, I got buttons downs, pants, sweaters, and even a jacket. Then somehow, I find myself back; mostly due to the spams of GAP emails I receive after having given them my legit email address after a purchase one day, both a bad and brilliant decision.

Then today it hit me, am I back in 1999 or something? I went to work dressed in a complete GAP outfit. It's like I'm sponsoring them or something like that. It's never a conscious decision when I get dressed. I just put on what pops out the most in my closet, because I'm a lazy slob and I don't have time for anything and always end up missing my bus. What's worse? I'm going back tomorow because they sent me another email saying they're having a menswear only sale.

I feel dirty. It's like being a Democrat but secretly vote for a Republican. I'm Canadian so this example doesn't apply to me, but you get the idea. It's like a love-hate relationship that I'm not sure I understand. But I have a slight feeling that it isn't a reciprocal relationship and I'm only using it as my rebound, since I'm broke and can only afford whatever's on sale. And whatever GAP has on sale is undeniably attractive.